#kit feeling inhuman is on point. jesus

[socially-awkward-skeleton]

Thanks @lethal-justice and @roofgeese for tagging me for this uquiz.

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Frankenstein's Monster

this plight is the simplest of them all: you did not ask for this. you were never given a choice. no part of yourself feels human, just a collection of traits you've picked up from mirroring anyone you could, even the people you meet through a television screen. it's alienating to live that way- yet someone has called you the alienating one. maybe too many people to count. maybe they treated you so uncomfortably inhuman that it's all you can understand now, or you've dug yourself into such a deep hole in an attempt to keep safe that you can't remember a person living in the home of your body at all. being alive is confusing and painful and lonely and loud but living is all there is to being human- you're already there. just take air into your lungs and breathe. close your eyes and picture a beautiful sky. you made that. you painted that yourself.

Vampire

it is the loneliest day of a vampire's life, the first time they look into a mirror and see their reflection missing. drinking blood sucks too, don't get me wrong, but as a vampire you had to learn to hide from the sunlight, from your family, all your friends, because you were unavoidably different now and you didn't know how to explain that to them in a way they would understand. you could get stranger's blood in bursts, but what is life when you can't know someone for longer than the night lasts? you left everything behind because it was easier than trying to tell them. i just hope you know you're not the only vampire out there, and that there exist people who will understand your situation without a word. they'll sit with you in the dark for as long as you'll need them to.

The Ghost

it's an odd thing, to feel so far from grounded and yet trapped, tethered, unable to escape. there's more you have to do! so why can't you move? i'm sure you have an answer to that, at the very least in the back of your mind. people love to say that ghosts hold grudges or haunt for revenge but they always get it wrong; you're stuck because something or someone chained you down and left you there. you try and reach out to all those bright people who pass through your life, but it rarely feels like it does much more than knock a cup off the table, blow some papers into the air. i need you to trust me- they see it. they're listening. they'll keep looking for you and, eventually, they'll be able to see you too.

[shanie-the-toyaddict]

Can we TALK about the Spongebob Squarepants Musical?

Just got done watching the Nickelodeon Filmed version, and...

I HAVE THOUGHTS

(SPOILERS FOR THE MUSICAL AHEAD)

Things that my tiny brain can’t get past:

Karen: Sheldon, you couldn’t rap to save your life. Plankton: OH YEAH (Proceeds to be a rap god for an entire song, INCLUDING a section literally BASED ON THE SONG “RAP GOD”.).

Pearl: Come ON daddy, I know we aren’t the same species... which is, like, REALLY weird when you come to think about it...

Speaking of Pearl, she is HANDS DOWN the best singer in the entire show, and it’s not just a random fact, it’s a legitimate PLOT POINT

Show Producers: We’re not going to make the characters inhuman. They will be real people who just look like the characters. Meanwhile, Ethan Slater: *is an actual invertebrate sponge (I don’t think the man has bones, I really don’t)

Nickelodeon: This is a kids musical for children Also Nickelodeon: We’re including an entire subplot about RACISM!

Nickelodeon: Spongebob is a family show about family values Also Nickelodeon: Well, Patrick is Jesus and Christianity is stupid, sooo...

Spongebob: “Is that a jellyfish on a stick?!”

Mrs. Puff is a damn ALCOHOLIC. They don’t even try to HIDE it.

Everyone: Let’s have a concert!! Patrick: Is mayonnaise an instrument? (Yes, that made it into the show)

THEY DID THE TIME LAPSE BIT

Every damn time Ethan Slater switched voices (as in dropped the Spongebob voice for a line or two) I WAS SHOOK.

HE CAN DO THE LAUGH

Despite being humans you can tell who everyone is supposed to be, and that is FN AWESOME

SQUIDWARD GETS THE SHOWSTOPPER

Speaking of which, I have two different sponge tutorials of this show, one Broadway, one Previews, and HANDS DOWN I feel the Nick one is better than both because you can see the minute details in facial expressions. I don’t even know how this show worked on stage because I have BEEN on broadway, and you can’t read emotions from the balcony. So I know little things like Spongebob’s eyes going haywire would NEVER translate to a theater audience. 

Person (I forget who): I NEED A DRUM KIT UP HERE! *realizes there is literally a percussionist on stage* Person: Oh. Percussionist: *waves*

*DOLPHIN NOISES*

Plankton/Karen is the true love story of the show, and I love that they REMOVED the line about “We don’t need to punish them, they have each other, that’s punishment enough.” NO FUCK THAT. Plankton/Karen is a true, loving marital relationship, and I am so grateful they drove that point home, rather than make it seem like Marriage = Hell.

PATCHY THE MUTHAFUCKIN PIRATE

“I Guess I Miss You” Is still way too close to a love song for my tastes but YMMV

I wish to know exactly what sort of training/preparation is required to be the sound effects guy because HOLY SHIT HE’S GOOD

The touching scene where Spongebob says goodbye to Gary? Wonderful.

Ok, so that part where Spongebob is climbing through the ladder setup. I didn’t SEE them attach the cable to him, and I’m fairly certain it would be impossible to USE a cable there, so PROPS TO ETHAN FOR DOING THAT SHIT WITHOUT ANY SAFETY EQUIPMENT!

The Panic! at the Disco song is really strong, and is the one moment where you find yourself realizing “Oh shit, Spongebob can SING!”

(during “Hero is my Middle Name”) Sandy: That’s nice boys, but mine’s Jennifer.

Not even counting the fact that “No Control” and “Best Day Ever” were already established songs, if someone handed me the soundtrack recording, along with a list of songwriters who contributed, I’m fairly certain I could match up most of them without any additional information. For example, “Just a Simple Sponge” is very CLEARLY Panic! and “Hero is my Middle Name” screams 80′s pop (Cyndi Lauper did that one). “Bikini Bottom Day” is right up there on JoCo’s style chart, I didn’t need to be told that the rock song was by Steven Tyler, and HOT SHIT, could it be possible that T.I. wrote the RAP SONG??? (and so on)

I’m somewhat sad that they removed the line about “Bikini bottom for fish only” because it made it absolutely impossible to miss the racism/white nationalist subplot. Perhaps they thought it made it a bit TOO obvious though and left it out because “This IS a family musical, and we don’t need to beat our audience over the head with that shit”.

On a related note, The Mayor is straight up a political statement on the inefficiency and corruption of the Government, and I’m here for that. I JUST REALIZED THAT IN THE TV VERSION PATCHY IS ACTUALLY TOM KENNY OMG!!!! Loving the diversity of the cast, TBH. However, it’s not colorblind casting like Hamilton. You can tell there was very careful planning in who played what, such as Sandy being a black woman with natural hair, Pearl being a woman of color while Mr. Crabs is white, The mayor is white, and so on. The only deliberate casting I have any issue with is Karen being Asian (and again, this was deliberate, not just colorblind casting), but I suppose you can handwave that less as “Asians are geeky/nerdy” and more as “She’s literally MADE IN JAPAN”, which makes it a bit more palatable.  This is all I have time for right now, as I am due elsewhere in 20 minutes, but yeah. There is so much awesome with this show/performance, and I recommend it to anyone, not just people who watched Spongebob as a kid. Yes, the millennial crowd will likely get the most out of it (even more than current kids), but it’s a good show for everyone. 

[aquaticalay]

Do That Again (Bucky Barnes x reader)

HEYYYYYYY!  I’m accepting requests again! Anyway here is a request from an anon a while ago, enjoy! (Basically very very slight angst and lots of fluff!)

Also I have post this imagine before, but it didn’t show up in the tags :(

Summary: You get shot and Bucky thinks its his fault.

Word Count: 1491

Warning(s): Cursing, blood

42. “I’m okay. You’re okay. We’re okay.”

43. “Hear my heartbeat? Just focus on that.”

The mission went pretty smoothly, at first.

It was just a surveillance mission, or was supposed to be. You, Bucky, and Sam were sent into a private quarantine zone. Steve had suspicions that they were conducting illegal human and animal genetic experimentation, but he had no proof. He couldn’t attack or open fire without solid proof that they were doing what he suspected. So, like any good leader, he sent in a reconnaissance team. It originally consisted of you, Clint, and Sam, but since Clint is supervising the training of the New Avengers, Bucky volunteered almost immediately.

“You don’t have to volunteer, Buck,” Steve said, “Nat’s got this one covered.”

Bucky cursed under his breath, “Steve, when was the last time you paired me and (Y/n) together?”

Steve counted the time in his head, “Six months, maybe?”

“Exactly! Why would you do that? You know I like her, I told you,” – he whispered the last part, in fear that someone would hear- “and I was expecting you to be a good wing-man.”

“I didn’t pair you with her because you like her,” Steve pointed out, “I don’t want you to get distracted.”

“C’mon!” Bucky exclaimed, “I never get distracted! When have I ever failed you?”

Steve looked at him dead in the eyes, “You fell off a train.”

“Touché.” He acknowledged.

“You’re not going, case closed.” Steve said, but unable to hide the small grin on his face. It was good seeing him like this, actually feeling something again, head over heels for a girl.

“Steve, you’ve got to let me do this, man,” Bucky was practically begging. He couldn’t believe after all those years looking out for Steve, that now Steve was the one looking out for him. Oh, how the tables have turned.

Steve sighed. “Fine, fine.”

Steve was surprised by a bear hug from his best friend, “Thanks, man.”

-

It was a simple mission, nothing you haven’t done a thousand times before. Sam would be the lookout outside, which, given his wings, makes a lot of sense. His wings would be useless inside, where there wasn’t even room to fly. You and Bucky would climb in the air vents, which would eventually lead to the main server, and you would hack into the system to get the information you need, while Bucky watches your back, should anyone intervene. The rest were details. Pretty simple, right?

Apparently, not.

Two patrolling guards passed the main server room armed with what looked like AR-15s. Standard firearms, nothing Bucky couldn’t handle.

“(Y/n),” He whispered, “Are you done?”

“I’ll tell you when I’m done,” you hissed. As much as you enjoyed his presence, you didn’t like being distracted while on the job.

“Well, you better hurry up, cause we’ve got company,” He warned, just as the two guards stepped inside and noticed them.

“Hey!” one of the guards shouted, pointing his gun at the two of you, “hands in the air!”

Bucky whispered to you, “Keep doing what you’re doing, I got this.”

“You sure?” You asked, and he nodded on the side of his head.

“I said hands in the air!” the guard said sternly.

He froze in his tracks, staring right into the eyes of one of the guards.

Before the guards could process anything, Bucky moved at an almost inhuman speed, disarming the guards. In the process, one of the guards fired his gun at Bucky, which he successfully redirected, and suddenly you felt pain in your abdomen. Your vision became blurry, your body trying to acknowledge the pain and where it was coming from.

You looked down and saw a pool of blood dripping underneath you. You locked eyes with Bucky, and whispered under your breath, “shit.”

“(Y/n)!” He shouted, knocking out one guard, and breaking the neck of the other out of anger.

He ran over to you just before your body hit the ground. “Shit, (Y/n), I’m so sorry,” he said, ripping part of his uniform to put pressure on the wound. “God, I’m so, so stupid.”

“A-are you oka-y?” you muttered under your breath. “Seriously, (Y/n)? You’re the one bleeding out and you’re worried about me?”

“Just answer the g-goddamn question, Barnes,” you demanded. He saw the worry in your eyes, and decided that it was the least he could do.

“I’m okay,” he reassured, “You’re okay. We’re okay.”

You tilted your head down, and saw that Bucky’s hand was drenched in blood, your blood.

“T-that’s a lot of blood,” you coughed up, and weakly handed Bucky a USB. “Here,” you told him, “Everything y-you need is h-here. Go.”

He looked at you as if you had just lost your mind. “There’s no way I’m leaving you here,” he grunted, picking you up, treating you like fragile glass. He tapped into the communications system, “Sam, (Y/n)’s been shot. You need to get to the quinjet and meet us on the south side on the roof.”

“Copy that,” he replied.

-

When you got in the quinjet, Bucky was able to treat your wound with a first aid kit, but your blood was overflowing. You floated in and out of consciousness, and Bucky was struggling to keep you awake.

“Sam, how long until we reach the compound?” He shouted, and Sam replied, “At our top speed, fifteen minutes.” You could hear the worry in Sam’s voice. “We might not have that much time,” he said.

“That b-bad, huh?” you asked, turning your head to Bucky.

There was no point in denying it, Bucky was now covered in blood, unable to stop the bleeding, pressing on the wound careful not to harm you with his metal arm.

“Jesus, Buck, it hurts,” She cursed.

“I know, please- just- Stay with me, okay?” He said desperately.

You were going to mouth a ‘yes,’ when your eyes rolled back. The last thing you heard was Bucky calling out your name frantically.

-

Sam flew the quinjet in record time, which might just save your life. Bucky took a mental note to thank him later, but right now, his focus was on you. Banner, Strange, and Shuri took you away to the med bay, and all he could do now is wait, and it killed him to wait.

-

Your eyes fluttered open slowly, adjusting to the light.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Where were you? Your eyes were fixated on the light bulb right ahead of you. You shifted in your bed, and looked around the room. Beside you, asleep on a one-seater chair was Bucky.

“Buck,” You ground, your voice as coarse as salt, “Bucky.”

His eyes snapped open, and at took a moment for him to realize you were awake.

“Oh, god, (Y/n),” He said, inching closer to you, “Are you okay?”

You sat up without even flinching. You could feel a slight pain in your stomach, but aside from that, you were okay. You felt okay, surprisingly, and you have Shuri and Wakandan healing tech to thank.

“I think so,” you said, facing him, sitting on the edge of the bed. “What happened?”

“Y-you got shot,” he stuttered, “You were on the operating table for twelve hours, I-” he choked on his word, holding back the tears, “I thought I was going to lose you.”

“But you didn’t,” You said softly.

Bucky sighed, frustrated with himself. He stood up, combing his metal arm through his hair. “No, you don’t understand, (Y/n), it was my fault, if I hadn’t convinced Steve-”

“Convinced Steve what?” you quipped, tilting your head. You weren’t angry, no, just curious.

“Nat was supposed to be on the mission with you, not me. I wanted to spend time with you, I- it’s just we never hang out anymore, so I convinced Steve to let me come with you instead of Nat, just so I could be with you, and I fucked up. I did a lousy job keeping you safe. If it was Nat instead of me you’d be-”

“Hey,” you interrupted, and motioned him to come close. You pat the space next to you on the bed, gesturing him to sit next to you, and he complied.

You could see the tears threatening to spill from his eyes and wrapped your hands around his neck, pulling him into the crook of your neck, just close enough to your heart for him to hear.

“Hear my heartbeat?” you felt him nod, “Just focus on that, Okay? You didn’t lose me, it wasn’t your fault.” You felt Bucky’s hand wrap around your waist. He dug his head further into your neck.

“Oh, and Buck?” you called, “Yeah?”

“The whole you convincing Steve thing so you could spend time with me? That was pretty cute,” you chuckled. He pulled away, his cheeks as red as cherries. “I- um,-”

You cut him off, leaning into him, pressing a short, sweet kiss on his lips, pulling away before he could process what was happening.

There was a short amount of silence, before Bucky blurted out, “Do that again, please?”

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